CAROLIE
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hello jellos! (: My name is Carole Lola. 20 years old. SJSU ; Art History. I have a penchant for: vintage, make-up, rings, J.Crew, my Celica, handwriting, and of course, tumblr.
Song of the moment.
FINALLY went on a date with my babyboy today! It’s been far too long. I think we’ve been planning to hang out since summer?
Our first time at Bitter+Sweet. I got the milk + honey ice cream, and we both tried the ham + cheese croissant and the hazelnut mousse cake(?). YUM. The interior was very modern chic, unlike any cafe/dessert place I’ve ever been too. A pleasant experience altogether.
Afterward, we decided to go to Verde because he was still hungry. Bahahha! Pudding milk tea + fried squid. Mmmmm. Also talked to my big + twin for a bit! :)
I had a great time catching up today! It’s always nice being able to talk to people who are older and more on the same page as I am. It was also interesting getting a new perspective about my hopes and dreams. Good times.
I’m looking forward to the semester.
The ones who take care of others all the time are usually the ones that need it the most.
We are.
We get into good colleges but are angry if we don’t get into every college we applied to. We are the captains of the basketball teams, the soccer stars, the swimming state champs with boxes full of blue ribbons. We win scholarships galore, science fairs and knowledge bowls, spelling bees and mock trial debates. We are the girls with anxiety disorders, filled appointment books, five-year plans.
We are the peacemakers, the do-gooders, the givers, the savers. We are on time, overly prepared, well read and witty, intellectually curious, always moving.
We are living contradictions. We are socially conscious, multiculti, and anticorporate, but we still shop at Gap and Banana Republic. We make documentary films, knit sweaters, and DJ. We are “social smokers,” secretly happy that the cigarettes might speed up our metabolisms, hoping they won’t kill us in the process.
We pride ourselves on getting as little sleep as possible and thrive on self-deprivation. We drink coffee, a lot of it. We are on birth control, Prozac, and multivitamins. We do strip aerobics, hot yoga, always go five more minutes than the limit on any exercise machine at the gym.
We are relentless, judgmental of ourselves, and forgiving of others. We never want to be as passive-aggressive as our mothers, never want to marry men as uninspired as our fathers. We carry the old world of guilt - center of families, keeper of relationships, caretaker of friends - with the new world of control/ambition - rich, independent, powerful. We are the daughters of feminists who said “You can be anything,” and we heard “You have to be everything.”
We must get A’s. We must make money. We must save the world. We must be thin. We must be unflappable. We must be beautiful. We must be perfect. We must make it look effortless.
- Courtney Martin | Perfect Girls, Starving Daughters
As weird as it is,
I miss worship and all things related. Chris Tomlin and Tenth Avenue North have been randomly popping up on my Pandora…
A sign? Perhaps.
I also really miss leading worship. But I reckon my time for that has passed.
